Yes I'm smelling myself...

Loving...
Current mood: loved
Category: One is the Magic Number Life

I am loving me some Kamilah Michelle!

From my curly, kinky mane to my full lips, to my fleshy arms to robust breast to my soft chubby stomach to my thick thighs to my skinny legs to my size 7 & a half feet-I'M LOVING ME!!!!! Totally.
I love my mind, my sweetness, my wit, my humor, my knowing what I want and not taking any bull shit. I love the woman I am and who i am becoming.

I honor myself. I respect myself. I teach young girls and women how to do the same. (It's a passion of mine) Self love self esteem loving me.

I am a Divine Creation of God. I am from HIM-He is a part of me.
(Aint that cool )

As Jill said in "One is the Magic Number":
So many times I define my prideThrough somebody else's eyes
Then I looked inside and found my own stride,
I found the lasting love for me
If I'm searching for my spiritualityPassionately
I must begin with me
There's just me...One is the magic number

UPDATE:: I need another beauty habit like i need a hole on the head

I totally forgot to mention that last Tuesday I officially became "Brazilian" and I loved it!! I did major meditation/yoga breathing and pulled through like a champ.
(i do have a high pain tolerance so don't go based on my experience)
I went to the best and first place to bring Brazilian waxes to the US-J Sisters!
And to top it all off I had the original J Sister Jane. She is the one who decided to go to America and wax in the 80's. She was fab! I'm hooked on them now.
I must be a closest exhibitionist because I wasn't put off by the camera. Plus I knew they were only shooting my face.
Jane did tell me that i will now attract a boyfriend...

Hi Guys!
Damn its been more than a minute since I posted!
I have a new apartment in BROOKLYN (bed-stuy to be exact).
Its a two room studio or jr. 1 bed room how ever you want to phrase it, but its DOPE!!!!!
And after i finish trickin it out on the decoration tip!!! Watch OUT!

In acting news-Rehearsal is going well we only have 4 weeks until the show so we are on the grind!
Its going to be a good show, I'm having so much fun with the characters.
(And the theatre is in walking distance from my new apartment!)

Everyday it gets better and better or awesomer & awesomer!

Let me clear something up...

Yes I am in a documentary about waxing.
I will be filmed from the NECK up while I'm being waxed.
My Vay-JJ will not be on film.
I don't believe in nude scenes.

Everyone can breathe now!

Filmed my first documentary....

This weekend I filmed my question & answer segment of the "Why We Wax" documentary that my buddy Kimberly Wetherwell is shooting.
It is an interesting subject. People really have deep feelings about waxing.
Men and Women.
So far I am the main storyline, since I will be the "virgin" waxer.
I'm getting a Brazilian on film!
I know I'm a little crazy!
I will do a few shots before hand!
Seriously!

PRACTICE...

I'm bad and skipped practice Monday.
It was Ajna's b-day and I'm so glad that I went.
I had so much fun and now have a beautiful roof top garden bar to hang out at on the
LES!
I drug my Gay Husband with me.
I drag him everywhere these days.
It was so good seeing Ajna and her friends were the best.
I really want to hang out with them again.
I even liked her boo kitty. (I forget his name)

Tuesday
I enjoyed practice but I really need to get my lines down!
I would be so free to really get into character.
And do my thing!
My favorite character of the 3 right now is "The Lady in Plaid".
She is a nut and so overly dramatic.
I enjoy doing her.

HOW DARE YOU...


I was a little upset yesterday that only 1 other person besides myself & the director showed up for rehearsal last night.
I was able to work on my part and get direction, so that was cool.
Plus my parts are so fun to play.
But I want people to take this seriously!!

DORIS' AMAZING GRACE

What can I say about the photo shoot!
It was great fun!
I loved my hair, the photographer, & the models.
We had a great time!
I can't wait to post pics for you blog readers!

First Rehearsal...

Last Monday we had our first rehearsal!
It was cool. Only 3 of the cast members were there-but we all have multiple parts
So we still did a read through.
I love my characters!
They are full bodied and out of control.
It is straight Satire and Comedy!
My favorites in the acting game!

I'm so blessed and happy!

I will blog the journey...

My first practice is next Monday.
Since I have 3 very different parts, I will start to memorize my lines ASAP!
Tres important!

I know this will be a fun and interesting experience!
I pray that I make good friends out of it.
You can never have too many good friends.

Did I blog about the hair oil photo shoot?
If not here goes:
My friend Marlene's mother is a hairdresser and has used her own
concoction of hair oil on her clients for years.
They have decided to market it and sell it.
Marlene has asked me to represent the natural girl in the
photo shoot.
How cool.
Now even though I'm half permed half natural
when my hair is twisted or rod set it looks all natural so that's the look I'll
have.
My old buddy Joanne is doing our makeup!
I'm so excited!

Saturday Marlene's mom will determine if some of my permed hair needs to be cut!
Yikes!
Yes I know, I've rocked the fro in the past, but I don't really want a fro right now.
I love my pony tail!
But I'm not missing this opportunity!
So I'll cut if I must...

OMG-I've been missing in action...

I do apologize to my faithful readers AHall and KSD!!
I have been cast in "The Colored Museum"!!
I have 3 roles!! WOW!!
I'm Miss Pat;The Lady in Plaid;and LaWanda!
The show isn't until the end of September in Brooklyn.
How exciting!!
I better start memorizing!

Had fun but no go-

The audition was ok yesterday.
They only wanted me to wear lingerie on the stage.
No big deal to me.
But they wanted a cacasian actress.
I had asked the writer to let me audition (a sista) and she did.
I've learned a lesson about myself.
Tyra saidon ANTM that it is easier to pull a girl that goes overboard back then try to pull the life out of someone.
So I need to go overboard on these theatre auditions.
Lessons learned!

Racy Content...

Tonight I have an audition for a play that has racy content and simulated sex!
WHOA!!!
My mother is beside herself because she is co convinced that I will be the star of Players Ball 2.
I'm just auditioning.
Checking the script.
I may love it, I may think its garbage.
But I'll have fun!

HEY...
Not much happening in the acting world.
My Sorority is producing the "Colored Museum".
I am really excited.
We will be having auditions next month.
I've read the script and really know what part I want.
Life is GOOD!

Luke Perry heard over 200 "no's"...

So I didn't land this one. AWWWW Shucks!!
But I'm ok.
It was a good experience.
I'm still hanging in there.
2007 is still great.

Waiting in vain???

So, Thursday has come and gone with no word from the sketch troupe!
WHY LORD WHY!!!!!!!!
So I emailed them this morning-like they requested us to if we didn't hear from them by Friday.
Maisha is convinced that it is a ploy to see who is really interested in the troupe.
The true people will email.
I'm not so sure.
From past experience I think that they don't usually call the people that they don't cast.
But they said they would call either way...
So I am still waiting for a call or email from these people.
But I am glad I had the experience.
It was probably the most fun audition I have been on so far!
I am blessed!

Audition #2....


Ok, I knew I bombed this audition last night.
I wasn't getting any of the games, and my partner was low energy.
It just was bad.
So when my friend Kristen e-mailed me and told me I didn't make it.
Lets just say I wasn't shocked.

I had so much fun at the other sketch audition.
I felt alive and excited.
Not so much last night.
But so is life!

No word yet on the other troop.
Matter of fact my cell hasn't rang all day!!!
ARGHHHHHHH!
I'm still keeping the faith!

Funtimes at the Callback...

I had a blast at the callback.
16 people were there and they are going to cast 9-12.
There were only 4 girls so the odds are good.
Each person had to pitch an idea for a sketch to the producers.
4 of the pitches will be selected for the group to try out.
My pitch was one of the ones selected.
YAY!!
We only had a short time to prepare it.
It came out OK but I think once developed it will be so funny!
We played several Improv games.
I kept thinking I'm having such a good time-someone wants to pay me to do this?!
They said we would know either way but Thursday.
God is good! Life is good!
I have another audition for a different sketch group tonight.
Watch me break a leg!!

CALL BACK for Audition #1...

So tonight at 7pm I have a call back for the sketch comedy group.
YAY!!
I have to come with some ideas for a sketch witch I was working on while i was on my vacay to the South.
I love the ATL-its already Spring there!

I will get cast.

AUDITION#1

So I went to my audition and had a wonderful time!
I did about 1:30 of Miss Minnie and then we did some
group improv style exercise.
I had everyone rolling with the worst line someone could say
on Christmas: (Brooklyn accent)
"Good Morning, I just wanted to let you know I've given you the gift of crabs"

The producer and the other 2 writers were cracking up.
Thank God for giving me that jewel.
In Improv you have no time to think.
You just go!

The cool thing about this troop is that they start touring the country in August.
Me on tour as an actress!
The best!
I'm so worth it!!!

C'est Moi!!!!!!

Acting Blog...

I've decided to turn this into an acting blog.
To chronichle my rise/jump to success!!!
YAY!!!
So tonight is my audition for an sketch/improv troop that travels around NYC and performs.
I'm going to knock them dead!
I'm such a star!
-Sunshine!

I'm BACK!!!!!

So I'm blogging again.
I just need to write right now.
I've been pretty successful with my goals in the 3months since I last spoke to you.
I created a character.
She performed a monologue!
I got a call back for a big national audition.
I've got an audition for an improv group tonight.
Thats what has me blogging.
My audition.
I'm excited but I'm afraid when they look at my resume they won't think I'm experienced enough.
The old me wouldn't have even showed up.
But new me is going.
And Miss Minnie is going to dazzle for her minute and a half.
And I will be cast.
There are no limits.

My Prayer...

Is to love myself as much as God does.
I'm working on it.
I have a lot of preconceived notions about the way things should be.
I used to believe I have to have A, B, & C before I can even start certain processes.
But I'm moving past that.
Sometimes you just work with what God is blessing you with right now.
Right now= the present.
Not what I strive to have 6 months from now but right now.
I let my weight stand in the way of my acting career.
I am just as talented as if I was 50 lbs smaller.
Somewhere along the line I got the message that I wasn't lovable heavy.
But I am erasing that thinking.
Planting new seeds of thought:
I am lovable just as I am.
I am still Gods child.
I am still caring, funny, nice, interesting, talented, silly...

2006 will not be missed...
2007 is my year. It is my time! To be the best me. It all starts this weekend when KSD helps me organize...
I took this survey( I heart these) from errinhaines.com:

1. what did you do in 2006 that you’d never done before?
Catered my birthday party & loved it.
2. did you keep your new year’s resolution?
I don't remember my resolutions from 2005.
3. did someone close to you give birth?
Yes-Yeah for Safiyah she is beautiful!!
4. did anyone close to you die? Yes-RIP Uncle Nicky
5. what countries did you visit? I stayed stateside all year-sad!
6. what would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006? Organization, abundance of money, romantic love,acting jobs
7. what date from 2006 will forever remain in your memory? July 21
8. what is your biggest achievement in 2006?
Getting a therapist
9. what was your biggest failure?
not auditioning
10. did you suffer illness or injury?
migranes and cramps-someone find a cure for both
11. what’s the best thing you bought?
hmmmm
12. whose behavior merited celebration?
hmmmmm
13. who’s behavior appalled/depressed you?
kramer
14. where did most of your money go?
Old Navy, WHole Foods
15. what did you get really excited about?
Safiyah
16. what songs will always remind you of 2006?
Laffy Taffy
17. compared with last year are you:happier or sadder?
Happier-I've accepted the loss of a friendship.
18. what do you wish you’d done more of?
Excercise, yoga, dance
19. what do you wish you’d done less of?
overeat
20. how did you spend christmas?
With my family in Indy. Including my favorite cousins "Big Dave & Coco"
21. did you fall in love in 2006?
I fell more in love with myself
22. how many one night stands?
0
23. favorite tv program?
Greys Anatomy
24. do you hate anyone new?
Hate is such a strong word! I dislike someone new that I thought was a friend until I let him move in...
25. best book you read?

26. greatest musical discovery?
Corrine Bailey Rae
27. what did you want and get? laptop
28. what did you want and not get?
Astology reading from Faith
29. favorite film of the year?
The Departed