I'm Acting...
Woo-hoo! I was just cast in "69 aint nothin but a number" running September 16-21.
(Not sure which theater yet)
I play a chicken head & a chick who doesn't believe in giving her power to the guy in a relationship but chick is super extra. FUN!
Totally not me but that is what acting is all about!

RELEASE...

Mr. Communication & I are strictly platonic, & I couldn't be happier!
FREEDOM!
It's funny I knew we weren't meant to be, but I had been single 4 so long that i was really going to try to push some kinda relationship out of it. Sick-ladies don't try that. If the Universe is doing everything to keep you from a relationship then step away. Follow your instincts,listen to your gut.

Here we go...

I'm about to find out if i've got a new job (same place different position) in about an hour.
I'll keep you posted, more money!

Punked Out...

I deleted my last post. I felt bad. I was really pissed off when I wrote it!
I will give it one more try, since we discussed some remedies to the problem.
But if it sucks again then I'm done!

Still growing...
I still like "Mr. Communication" but we aren't destined for the long term.
Which is ok. It's nice to have friends. It is part of my journey to live & experience.
To learn and grow! I'm at peace and that is a beautiful feeling!

Love & the STRONG Black Woman...

So I'm "in like" with this brother that I haven't allowed myself to like in the past 6 months.
It's a lil scary.
I really had my heart broken in my last love affair, and I really don't want that.
My mind was doing everything to block this brother.
If he sneezed wrong, I was through.
But he would keep calling me.
Now I admit that he didn't do everything right, I had some legit reasons to be pissed at him.
But we had a talk the other morning and he expressed that those small things weren't worth throwing away something that has potential.
He was right.
So now I am "in like".
I am allowing myself to be open to him, and the possibility of this thing growing.
I'm not perfect but I have this perfect image of the man I want.
He didn't match some of my criteria so I was done, when he did anything wrong.
I quickly put him in the "jump off" or "friend" box.
Was that fair?
I don't know but at the time I thought it was.
I was STRONG, protecting me from wayward men who weren't putting my feelings in the forefront.
I have all these notions:
If he does "A" then I'm out cause that is a sign that he is:crazy, cheap,controlling, a wife beater, etc.
But that isn't necessarily fair.
Sometimes, its just a situation. Especially if he is willing to talk about it.
And this guy is a talker. He is a good communicator.
He actually asked me to talk about our issues.
I was amazed and very happy!
We actually sat down and discussed things.
I've never experienced a man leading that before.
I like it and I like him...

I rocked this audition!

WOW! its been forever since I blogged! I had a really good audition yesterday!
For a play-the "Spoken Word" version of Medea.
I did so well the director told me "You set the bar very high!"
I am super excitied. She said she will let me know by Wednesday.
Keep sending the prayers up!

New Celeb Crush....

I have had many celeb crushes-Marlon Wayans, Maxwell,Raphael Sadiq,I could go on. But my new man is Lenny Kravitz! WOW! I love me some him!
He is talented and all artsy & the brotha is waiting to have sex until he is married to make sure he is connected to the womans soul, & mind.
Be still my heart!

WTF!!!

It must be time for my period because I'm not in the mood-at all for the BS!
I have got to get accepted into one of these programs in the UK!
SERIOUSLY!
I can't take not acting and being creative, and for lil' money!
Bitch Please!

Making Moves...

I'm making changes-
thinking about moving to Harlem-which means a roommate but less rent.
thinking about grad school in London
thinking about doing what I need to do to get my body in shape
thinking about having, inviting, needing love in my life-in many forms
thinking it isnt wrong to crave deep soul connecting relationships romantic or platonic
thinking about living in warm L.A.
thinking that I've never been to New Orleans or Miami
thinking that I need a beach vacation
thinking that I need to be in commercials for that $$$
thinking that I'm so blessed to be free to create the life that I want!

I've got alot to do in this lifetime. i'm trying to work it out now.
I don;t have all the answers.
Lately I've felt lost.
There is this person inside me yearning to get out,
but she is stuck. By my blocks and fears.
I'm taking the steps to block those fears and I realize that I can not
do it alone...

Oh to play catch up!

The Colored Museum-was a success sort of...Due to lack luster ticket sales we only did Sunday's performance, which meant my dad flew to NYC for nothing. Thing is I got a great monologue out of it and I had a ball. Plus the friendships I made were everlasting.

"Why We Wax"-This was my first experience with editing. Never tell people that you are in something. I was originally supposed to be the focus of the movie. I invitied all my NY fam and co workers to the premiere, and I was in it for like 1 minute. DAMN! The director decided to go another route. I had fun and got a free wax from the best ladies in the biz. But damn they could have warned a sista as I would have gone by myself istead bringing 10 other people with me. Lesson learned.

Which leads me here to NOTHING.
I gotta get some help because I really stand in my own way.
GOD PLEASE HELP ME!